Shaken, Stirred, and Shifted

It's super cliche but we all have moment in our lives where our perspective is shifted. Sometimes it's a literally physical and emotional upheaval, sometimes it's a small change or bump. It can be a simple event, sometimes a tragedy.

Recently for me, it's been a little of all of it, and kind of none of it...

As most of you have probably heard myself and a couple other volunteers were mugged outside of our hotel in Nairobi early on the night of the 12th. Thankfully, I was the only one physically injured. (Follow-up, picture post to come), with some trama to my eye.

Overall, it should be a pretty tramatic event.  I mean one of the biggest fears, especially being abroad, is being assulted, right? This is where my perspective has been stirred, so to speak. I have had people tell me that I am such a strong person, or that I'm handling it so well, or that I'm brave, but I don't feel any of that.

I just feel like me.

I feel strongly about weird things, and calm about others. I don't feel angry at the people who did this to me, yet I am extremely frustrated that I am being taken away from my work. I don't feel afraid to be alone or be out anywhere but I do feel over-particular when it comes to making decisions now...

Tomorrow I am being flown to the capital (of America) to be poked, prodded and reviewed by some of the best opthalmologists in the country.  The eye, overall, is healing well, however I am experiencing doubled vision when I use both eyes at the same time. Potentially the rest of the outcome of my life could be affected by what turns-up (or doesn't) from their examinations and I don't know how I feel about it.

Everything could change, how am I gonna be able to handle it?