Sleeplessness in the Face of the Unknown

I can't sleep. I will literally be boarding a plane in less than six hours to travel to the first part of my 6 week journey into a new country. Why can't I sleep?

Worry. No. Stress. No, that has past. Fear. Surprisingly, not at all.
Then what is it?!

While I was double checking my packing a song came onto the radio. I can't remember the name of the song or the artist but the words that I heard struck me. I don't even know If they are correct but this is what I heard:
Everyday I see the news, all the problems, bet we could solve them
but if the situation rises, we write them off, they should solve them
We could set it straight and go, I hope but all it is is
"I don't really like my phone..."
I don't even know if these are the correct words, or even what the rest of the song was about, but it bugged me. These last few weeks have been wonderful, seeing family and visiting friends before I leave, but one thing keeps bothering me; the advice.

I know the people in my life care about me and want to see me safe, but it's like they drowned out the entire reason I'm going. I'm not going there to be safe, this isn't a vacation...

The best way to describe my thoughts is by breaking down the song. What I feel that takes place are two ways of thinking. The first is that there are problems to be fixed, so we go for a few days/weeks do some good deeds and leave (set it straight and go').
What does this really do? There's no sustainability, there's no relationship,... something's missing.
The other tends to be diversion; 'Those people are lazy, if they just did this...' or 'that issue is to far away for me to worry about it' or [enter excuse here]. (we write them off, they should solve them)
Or simply the focus and find distraction in materialistic things. We let our thoughts be consumed about the newest and biggest, that the other issues that exist in the world get forgotten. (but all it is is 'I don't really like my phone').

I'm guilty of it, I don't know very many who aren't but I'm going to Peru to learn and understand what a life of poverty is. Taking a servant position beneath that the people who live there, in the hope that I can example Christ. This is the alternative road I wish to take. I'm nervous and yet excited about where it will lead me. Funny how a song can be a marvelous outline for things.

Please pray for me, brothers and sisters; that I may find answers while seeking God. These are just random bits of thoughts that are in my head as I prepare to leave, an aid to process them if you will. I thank you for all you support, and hope to see you in 6 weeks.

Much love.